new home

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moving

After almost five years blogging here, I am moving to a different address. I am in the process of setting up my new home.

I'm going to miss this little space, but as usual, it's time for a change.

Please check back for an update!

CHANGES

Obviously a new baby brings forth many new changes, but of course, I didn't imagine it would be this much. Thank goodness my hubby and Jasmyne have handled it well (better than i have I must say). Dex and I make a great team, and if it weren't for that, I don't know how we would have survived. It's almost been a month and I must say, we've done GOOD! We managed it all on our own and we've managed to entertain Jasmyne by going to different places on an almost daily basis. The hubby goes back to work this Sunday, which is kinda sad. We've been having a great family "vacation" for the last five weeks. I go back to work earlier than expected as well due to my lack of PTO or vacation time.

Anyway, the biggest change of all is my hormones. I went from being pregnant with hormones raging to all of a sudden having a baby- dropping all my hormonal rage. I was in a pit for about two weeks. It was a very trying time. I was severely depressed and crying for no reason at all. I would be talking to Dexter and all of a sudden I would start crying. It was 1000x worse during the night time. I was actually happy when we had visitors cuz it made me feel alive for a bit. We frequently had guests/family/friends coming the first two weeks- so it was nice. It has slowly gotten better. I'm not going to say that I have recuperated totally, but I have improved a whole lot. My 6 weeks post partum time is coming up, so it should be better by then. It's a big deal in the hospital and everyone is always talking about POST PARTUM DEPRESSION and Dex was really close to admitting me to the Psych ward!!! HAHAHA. Can you imagine how crazy he must have thought I was?!?

Our sleeping pattern changed, but NOT AS MUCH as I thought it would. It's more that we can't sleep in the same room as opposed to not getting any sleep. We are actually gettting sleep. Dex and I take turns (every other night) staying with Janelle in her room. Janelle is a much better sleeper though. She sleeps 2-3 hours straight after midnight before she has a tantrum attack for her milk. We just bought a baby monitor because she started sleeping in her crib this week. So when she cries, we give her milk and put her back in her crib. She sleeps for about two and a half hours and cries again and walla- that's our nightime routine. She is definitely much more calm at night than Jasmyne was when she was a newborn. Jasmyne did not have any sort of pattern. So we'll see how the baby monitor works out. Jasmyne misses BOTH of us telling her bedtime stories and doing our normal bedtime routine.

Janelle is also a big time gassy baby. She gets so angry when she can't pass gas or burp. She's a big time spitter as well. When she burps she almost always spits up milk (sometimes even vomits it). The doctor says that is normal, so I'm not too worried. Anyway, I can't believe the holidays are here. On top of my post partum depression comes the winter blues. I HATE WINTER TIME. I may just ask the doctor to prescribe me something for my seasonal disorder. I don't like feeling down during the holidays- but I seem to always do. We'll see.

Such a random post- I know! I'll try to make it more interesting next time, whenever that will be.

Until then: stay warm!

   SHE'S HERE

Our second angel, Janelle Dawn, was welcomed into the world today at 804am. It was 200% easier than the first time. She weighed in at 8lbs and 9oz. She was huge compared to Jasmyne. I can't believe I pushed her out in less than 30 minutes and it was pain free! Most women need a C-Section for a baby that big. I guess I have a lot of room down there. Hahahaha.

Anyway, my contractions began around 500pm but started getting stronger and stronger throughout the night. It was around 1230am when I was panting in bed and trying to go through the contractions. I didn't want to bother my doctor, so I was trying to hold it down longer. Finally, around 230am, I decided I was going to take a shower and head to the hospital. I had to take a shower even though the pain was just too much. I was literally panting and screaming during my shower. The hubby was getting a little annoyed, but hey, I'm the one who's all exposed. I just had to take a shower first. So we got to the hospital at around 330am. I was pretty much screaming through the car ride having these huge, long lasting and painful contractions. I didn't think I would make it. It was unbearable. I got an epidural right away and I was in heaven. All it took to deliver her was 4.5 hours from my arrival. It actually was not so bad. There was a slight problem and she didn't take a breath for about a minute or two, but it all turned out okay. Her umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck and I couldn't quite push her out faster- as much as I tried. They should have told me her cord was wrapped! I freaked out a little bit, but thank goodness everything turned out okay.

She is beautiful and has the cutest chunkiest legs ever. Jasmyne saw her already and loves her so much. She has already started to help me feed her and she keeps giving her kisses. We bought her a Barney doll that we said was from her little sister, and she kept saying Thank You to her. It was so cute. Now I am all alone at the hospital. I told Dex to go home and get some sleep. We had company over last night, and he hasn't slept yet. As soon as he came up to go to "sleep" I was ready to get the heck out. I'm a bit lonely, but tired too. So it'll be nice to get some sleep. The baby will be at the nursery all night with the nurses. Hopefully I can go home tomorrow.

Here's a little preview of the little munchkin...

Good Night everyone!

it's time

So for the past two days, I have been been having bleeding episodes. They don't last very long, but nevertheless, I am still saturating a pad and having blood clots. One of them was the size of an egg. I'd go to the hospital and get checked and then get sent home within two hours. It gets pretty tiring opening up my legs and everyone inserting their fists all up in there, but apparently the doctors think I love to keep coming back just for that. Oh the sarcasm. So they have scheduled me to DEFINITELY have the baby by Monday if I don't start contracting on my own.

At about 5PM today it started happening. It was very gradual and tolerable. I was actually getting a mani-pedi at Woodfield. It is now close to 8PM and I am having pretty bad contractions every 5-7  minutes. I was instructed not to come in unless the pain was lasting for more than a minute every five minutes. SH*T! With Jasmyne, that was when I required an epidural. So here I am trying to focus and write an entry before the baby comes. It will either be tonight or tomorrow or definitely Monday. The way things are progressing, I think it will be sometime after midnight when I tell Dex it is time for him to drive me to the hospital. This time i will ABSOLUTELY refuse to be sent back home. I hope I'm not one of those that are moaning and groaning in pain on the way to the hospital.

Wish me luck and have a Happy Halloween everyone!